you have insulted my friends for tat moment,
and tat moment had cause a lot of frustration,anger and sort.
maybe it wont work,no matter how many times i had told you.and yes,you misunderstood
and yes,tis time cos of your those words without .....
you had actually created a mess again.

thought i could have a peace of mind after today,
but no.after ytd,not even ... a big mess just blow out like tat.

after tis incident,i have lose trust in myself and to others.
tats the reason why i been askin for advice.ok?
they are friends who were really there when i need them.
they clean my tears,they make mi smile,they make mi stand up again,
they talk mi out,they tried their best to make mi stop thinkin,
they dressed my ..., they give the support,the courage.
and so do my family.


im really really tired,hope you all dun force mi anymore.
i need a break.
jus let mi be happy until the result's day.

and yes,i'll stay firm and not waver,
afterall its my future,its my life.
mummy,i know you care.

no more takin the first step?
think so.

Labels: break time

tissue in my nose-.-
cos its bleeding.

Labels: numb

wats done cannot be undone.

wat am i suppose to do?
wat am i expect to do?
wat do you wan mi to do?

bother and dun bother jus keep flashing in my mind.

cos i still see you as friend.
wan to tel you how much you have change and sort,
but ya we know you dun need us,cos you have her.

seriously,im not afraid to say.
every since she appeared,we become easily replaced.
everytime you had a new friend,den we are being replaced.
wat are we to you or maybe jus wat am i to you?
wat are goodfriends to you? why can you jus ...
even if some are not,you shldnt do such to them too.
remember tat time i told you,who who are my really true friend,
but why. why things turn out to be like tat.
why do i always have to be the one tryin to solve the prob when you
are the one hurting mi.
why are you tellin mi tat you ...
why do you apologised to mi tat day,den the next day i came
back from my holidays,den it turn out to be like tat.
i rather you tel mi everythin earlier,right from the start.
but guess wat,my instinct is too strong right from the start.
thats why i know is you.
i rather you not give mi the support durin the period of ...
i know you are tryin to care for mi,cos im ...
but after the exams,i rather you tel mi everythin,
dun let mi go deeper into it.
but yet you're givin mi support and on the other hand,doin such at my back.
i dun understand.
enough of everything.
if you think a freindship for 4years is jus worth like tat,
i have nothin to say.

jus wan to say,im tired of bein the one to stand up to solve it.
wat can i do when you dun even bother,when you are like tat.
dun say i blame you,but cos you stand out to share your part.
i dun blame you two now.
im numb.



thankyou to those who were there when im down,
thankyou for pulling mi up again.
i know is not worth for those ...
i promise you all i will stop doing such thing,
i promise i will get well soon.
sorry to make you all worry.

if you all know mi,
you'll know wat friends are to mi.


misjudgement.
get on.

Labels: numb

its no longer the same.
runnin around the circle like always,
nev know wat the next step would be.

L comes around and
they knock you down.
but its up to you,
to get up or
trash it.

hard work do pay off??
Yes? No?
no one knows.

chalet tml wit mrlaw and gang :)